I have lost my joy.
It's been a slow process over several years. It happens when you offer to help someone out and they take advantage of you continually until you have nothing left to give.
A few years ago an organization I was a part of had a change of leadership. Without asking me first, the previous leader told the new leader that I would help him out. I am very much an introvert, I do not like being in front of crowds and I'm very uncomfortable. What I was roped into doing involved being in front of a crowd. I did say I would do this temporarily but they would have to find somebody else. It's been three years and they've made no effort to find a permanent replacement. Once a week, every week. We did have one person offer to help out, but when I offered to step down and let him take over, he stepped back and now doesn't do it at all. Lately they want to change things and want me to teach new things. I have been saying for three years that I am not a teacher, I am not a leader. It is not my gift, not my calling. I get emails and messages telling me that I should do things differently but nobody offers to step up and take over. Because of this, I ended up leaving the organization as this is the only way to force them to finally find a replacement.
I once had joy doing what I do but because someone took advantage, I have lost the joy.
